Journal Entry – March 12th, 2024, 12:32 AM
It’s a bit past midnight, making it technically the 12th of March, 2024. I’m a little late to log this as my second day of journaling. Anyway, who cares about the timing, right? But in my heart, this still counts as the second day.
Today, I’m feeling caught in an emotional storm. It’s tough to express—it’s like there’s this massive whirlwind of feelings inside me. The heaviest feeling is this sense of being stuck. At 28, there’s this nagging thought haunting me, telling me I don’t have much time left to achieve everything I want. This thought is both a motivator and a huge source of stress.
My dream? It’s a big one—I want to change the world, make it better. But looking at the grand scale of my ambitions versus my day-to-day actions, I can’t help but feel what I’m doing is just too little. This huge gap between my dreams and my reality stresses me out, leading me into this cycle of procrastination, which only makes me feel more stuck.
I know I need to start breaking down my goals into smaller, more manageable tasks. Focusing on the journey rather than the destination might help ease some of this pressure I’m putting on myself. Acknowledging even the small wins and reminding myself of any positive impacts I’ve made, no matter how minor, might help me see the value in the smaller steps I’m taking.
Despite these challenges, I’m trying to remind myself that it’s okay not to have all the answers right now. It’s okay to take things one day at a time. So, for now, I’ll focus on what actions I can take daily that align with my values and the changes I wish to see in the world. Let’s see how this approach works moving forward.
Even though I’m starting this entry late into the night, I’m not letting the timing detract from its importance. This is still my second day of journaling, a small step towards the consistency I aim for. Here’s to hoping that acknowledging these feelings and thoughts is the beginning of breaking free from the cycle of stress and procrastination.